Bad Luck.

I think I have such bad luck or God is trying to teach me a lesson. I've been getting sick alot this year. I now have a Urinary Tract Infection, and it's driving me nuts. I don't know what to do. After my morning pee, there's that frequent feeling of having to pee but I don't need to. It has made me spend most of my time in the bathroom. Towards the afternoon that feeling goes away. But surely comes back after my morning pee. :( I bought antibiotics already and will start tomorrow. I really need this to go away. It's affecting my performance at school. And college is a tough world out there. No excuses pretty much if you're absent. :( I know that I sound so DRAMA and like a big baby cause alot of people get UTI's, but I have a low tolerance in pain and I cry all the time when I'm sick. I never got sick as a child. Actually I started getting sick during college lang and it's hard when I don't have anyone really to care for me since my mom is away. And everyone here expects me to be an adult and take care of myself. But what I learned in my TFN class that when everyone is sick, they wanna be baby'd. It's nice to be taken cared of no matter how old you are. And yet again, I'm so thankful to my boyfriend.  He's always there to take care of me. And if I didnt have him, I'd probably be so miserable and rot in my room feeling sorry for myself :| Thank God I have him.

Any way. I would like to take this time to ask all you who care about me to pray for me. As I said before I have low tolerance to pain and something as simple as this is driving me nuts and I want it to be gone :((( I feel so sad. I want it out of my system and never to come back again. thank you so much if you decide to include me in your prayers. It means soo much to me.

Enough

I've had enough. How much can a girl take in a span of 1 month? College is not about finding your friends and stuff like that. It's not about drama either. Then why do these people keep creating problems and especially for me. Why can't you get a dictionary and learn how to be a REAL FRIEND. No wonder you have each other lang. You're the only people who can understand each other.

There are alot of things I regret during my first year of college. And that was letting go the ONLY friend I had that knew what friendship really meant.

It's so crazy that some people can really make you feel like crap. Grabe. All they care about is themselves! When it comes to the time that I need comfort, they don't give a shit. Sorry for the language but I'm really so pissed off with that person's attitude. Okay fine, I'll write out the story. I need to let it out narin! Basta there was a celebration, and I couldnt go kasi Japs didnt want me too. So tampo sila. Then later, early the next morning, Japs' lolo died. So I'm so happy I didnt go to the celebration. Kasi what kind of girl friend would I be to party while my boy friend is in the hospital taking care of his lolo who was in the ICU. I would've felt awful! Then I told them what happened and sana they understood, para walang paki. Just all caught up in theyre happiness they had last night. So I took that as an offense. You call yourselves my friends. But howcomes you can even be the least bit of comforting. Puro "!" mga comments nyo. parang galit and or just dont give a damn!

I've had enough. At this time. I feel completely alone. I need Japs. But he now needs me more than I need him. Now, he has to extend his stay in Camiguin. Im trying to be understanding but it makes me sad. Because I miss him so much. And he's my rock. He's the only one who can really comfort me whatever the situation may be. :(( I can't believe how my life is turning out right now.

Makes me think of moving back to the states, or transferring schools. Get a new fresh start. Cuz seriously, this is all too much to handle! Lord, Please save me.