An Epiphany

             Today I had an epiphany. Although, I feel super dumb for believing it. They said that today, May 21, 2011 is the start of the judgement day (rapture). I'm a Christian. And I shouldn't even think twice about believing what the media say. Only God knows Himself when He will come. Tonight rather I mean this morning at 2:13am I realized how dumb I was being, how worldly I was being. I was believing and trusting the media more than the Holy Bible. This moment I realized that I wasn't being as active as a Christian as I was before. College changed me a lot and I think everyone changes during college. But, me out of all people, I didn't think I'd change this much. I am a strong-willed person and I believe in having morals and sticking to them. I also have a loud conscience. After, have this scare of the world coming to an end and having all these thoughts bounce around in my head, I decided that I don't wanna be scared when the end is near. I don't wanna feel like I regretted not doing something or saying something. Since, the prediction wasn't true, I wanna use my life for God's glory.


              For example, use my talents to bring or draw people to God. Singing is a God-given talent. I can join groups, ministries, and organizations that involve singing and promote Hillsongs. They are a good and awesome band, plus thier a CHRISTIAN band. When you hear their songs, they move you. Well, this is just an idea/example. I just want to give back to the Lord for what He has given me. (Even just studying well is glorifying Him.)


              Another thing I would like to do or change is my attitude. All my flaws in my personality, I want to change, erase, or simply tone down. Such as; impatient, easily-irritated, moody, straight forward, frank, procrastinator, judgmental, lack of motivation, and lack of commitment. I would like to create new friends and  enhance the old friendships. I wanna be a new me, a better me.


              This end of the world scare did me good. It taught me that I should live my life. Because for the past two weeks, I have been depressed, let me tell you. It may not be obvious until last Tuesday when I kind of broke down. I held it in and I should have let out my feelings to avoid this emotional break down. I was feeling lonely, even if I had many friends and a supportive loving boyfriend. It's just that the new sectioning was hard at first, then we all got used to it. But just a little too used to it that my very good friends from another section was kinda having a hard time fitting time to have bonding moments which therefore made me feel left out. Then I tried being more open and friendlier to my section mates, but they just wont budge. They are all so used to their friends that they had. So I really felt rejected and alone. But now I'm feeling better. I just need to remember that I need to live life happily. Life is too short to be sad. :)

Hello, this is my high school best friend :) her name is Ms. Ma. Angelica Go. We first became friends when we were both in our second year of college hihi! That was the year 2007? Its funny on how we became best friends :)) very funny indeed. Actually, we both had boyfriends at the time and it was not allowed in our school to have relationships. So we stuck together cuz we could you know, keep our relationships a secret with each other. :) haha funny! We would always have double dates and call ourselves "the fantastic four" haha. Well, we broke up with those bfs, but we still stuck as best friends! I love gelly! We had our ups and downs, but we made it through. I am so thankful for her. I can honestly say that she help shaped me into the woman I am today. She was the person who approached me when I wasn't being nice or my attitude was bad and I changed it since that day.:) I LOVE YOU GELLY! :)) We should've made a Sexiversary! Oh yeah, we call each other Sexi, baaaack in the day, we were both very slim and sexy haha and we reminisce on those days! haha we will be sexy again don't worry! HAHA.

My favorite memory with Gel was when our classmate asked us if we knew what "FUGLY" meant. haha Then our classmate said its "Fvcking ugly" haha then we laughed and Gel said point to me then to herself, "I thought it was fat and ugly?" hahah so it was like she was referring to us as the fat and ugly! hahaha you just had to be there to really understand :)) ok ok well I think I can continue sharing more about her next time :) Thanks for ready, Please follow :)

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Hello Readers!
I decided to make this blog since I love to write my thoughts and opinions. I'm looking forward to blogging. I've done blogging before on multiply but never a full on blogging site :) So I'm new hihi.

So I just wanna briefly introduce myself. So, first of all, Im Jessica. :) You can call me Jess, Jessii or whatever haha! Im 19 years old. My birthday is November 13, 1991. I was born in San Francisco, California. I lived in SF til I was 14 then I moved to the Philippines to take up High School and College. I'm planning to go back after college. So, some of my hobbies/talents are singing, playing volleyball, and putting on make-up! hihi!

Singing, is something that I can honestly say I've been doing forever. My dad's side of the family is really musically inclined so it's  in my blood. haha I started performing solos and choir's when I was in the first grade! haha since then, I join whatever I can :)

Playing volleyball, I started 7th grade. Our school didn't start having a volleyball til when I was in the 6th grade so yeah. ahah I was a basketball more when I was young. When I moved to the Philippines that's when I became hard core for volleyball :)

Make-up, I love love! That's all I can say. I learned tricks from my mom and youtube :) hihi I have a youtube but I didnt have time to really film and Im kinda shy haha that's another reason I started to make this blog hihi!

Others: I like to sketch. I'm an aspiring fashion designer. My plan is after I become and RN (registered nurse), I'll work for a bit then go back to school to study fashion. :) Then start small, like being an asistant to a fashion designer or a stage manager at a fashion show or a stylist. Then eventually get my own line up. I'm thinking of naming it "Just Jessii" :) or "Simply Jess".

I also like to dance! Well, more like at a party or with friends. Not choreo! I can't dance Choreo to save my life!! haha I would like to learn salsa or something though :) hihi And Im good at shaking my hips and I wanna take up Hula :)

Hmmm.. what else? I love the color purple. In all shades. but I love the royal purple. hihi pretty pretty! I love hearts :) all things with a design of hearts! :)) im obsessed!

Okay so more on my life than my hobbies and likes. I have two younger sisters. I'm happily taken, my boyfriend and his name is Japs Popera :) We've been going out for almost 7months. yupyup

So, til next time :) Please follow!